Dear maybe,

I really wish that everyone said what they meant. I don't understand why they don't. I don't understand why I can't stop questioning words, always thinking that what you say isn't quite what you mean. Always questioning other people's feelings and motives as if everyone has some personal vendetta against me. In reality I realize that I'm not always that important. I think I'm just getting to the fork in the road, where "I like you" isn't good enough but "I care about you" seems so far off.

Is it bad that I want you to care? I'm not usually a very needy person, but I'm starting to miss having someone to trust in.

-ck