Dear whoever-you-are,

When you disappear, where do you go? (I want to find you there, in that place, in that vulnerable state.)

-ck

Dear new love,

Come prove me wrong about everything I thought I knew.

-ck

Dear fuck you,

How do you sleep at night?

Certainly not alone, that's for sure.

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Dear whoever,

Learn to be content with loneliness. Learn to speak what's on your mind. Learn to take risks. Learn to take that first step. Learn to make change happen. Learn to cry. Learn to accept. Learn to let go. Learn to move on. Learn to start over. Learn to know when to let go. Learn to love again. Learn to let someone love you again. Learn to know what's in your control and what's not. Learn to be free. Learn to settle down. Learn what's best for you.

I wrote this for me and then I realized without knowing it, that I also wrote it for you.

Dear you intrigue every part of me,

What I want to tell you is that I do not love you. What I want to explain to myself is how could someone possibly love someone like you? and how ___? and how ___? and how? how?
What I want to know is what you really think. What I want to hear is why you say things like "past tense?" when I say I liked you. What if I said I loved you? Would you say "past tense?" as if that isn't completely irrational? What I want to tell you is I fall in love every day. Mostly with strangers. What I can't admit out loud is that you are a stranger. What I need to face is that I want you to be my most intimate stranger. What I need is your mystery close to me, I need to know everything. What I need is to know you until I'm satisfied.

-ck

Dear you changed me,

I would like to tell you that I miss you and have you respond favorably. I would like to hear your voice. I would like to hold your hand. I would like to kiss your neck in the place that makes you crazy, just to laugh at your response. I would like to give you eskimo kisses because I think they're cute. I would like to wake up next to you again, hear you make fun of me for never being able to sleep. I would like to belong to you.
I would not like to admit that I don't really care about your intentions or if you want to belong to me. I would not like to admit that being the girl you text semi-regularly, being the girl you let send annoying drunk text messages to you, being the girl you say you want to be with.... I would not like to admit that that is good enough for me. (But it is.)

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Dear Ican'tstopthinkingofyou,

I need you to be here. There's something about you. Something that makes me miss you. Something that makes me trust you despite the fact that your actions don't deserve trust. Something tells me that you're different, that it'd be different if you were here or I were there.
I want you to be here. I want to be with you. I haven't felt that way about someone in awhile, and I sure as hell don't have the guts to admit that anywhere but here.

-ck